well, it's now official, i don't give a flying fuck. i've been burning out for a few weeks and now that burnout is over, i'm well done and ready to be out of class for a month. i just have no energy left. how do you people do it? how do you manage to keep going? i am not doing it at all well. i know i need to be doing other things but i'm not doing them and there's a good chance some of them won't get done at all. i am shit-faced burnt-out drugged-up sleep-deprived and sara-starved. i need my girl. i need to feel her lying next to me while we watch a video. i need to feel that effervescent explosion on my lips when i kiss her. i need to smell her hair. i need to smell the back of her hand and her neck and her ears and her nose. i need to kiss her on the eyelids and on the cheek and on the forehead. i need to show her how much i do love her. that is all that matters to me right now, the rest is just going through the motions and waiting for her.