back when i knew how to change

laying on the bathroom floor
kitty licks my cheek once more
and i, i could try,
but waking up is harder when you wanna die

walter's on the telephone
tell him i am not at home
cuz i, i think that i
am going to a place where i am always high

my name's elizabeth
my life is shit and piss.

i was just listening to that album again. amazing amazing music. it moves you like few things i've ever heard. it's the eels, it's called electroshock blues. it was written in a year where the guy writing's entire immediate family died. his sister commited suicide, his mom died of cancer and his dad of a heart attack. so it's very dark at the beginning and you get to see him work through it until at the end he's just starting to see the light on the other side of this super black tunnel.

so yeah, i'm having a great night now that i have time to relax tomorrow. i'm excited for the weekend, i need money, lol. and i get a paycheck this week, i think. so that means i'll probably finally put a high flow intake into my little gal. that means even more power *extreme sarcasm, i won't even be over 100 hp post intake* and better gas mileage, which is a large part of why i'm doing it, lol. i love my environment so i'm going to try to conserve if i'm going to be greedy and drive around. i'm excited, i think my hair might make it to donation length by the time i cut it...i really hope it does. i really want to donate it now. shave my head bald like a monk but give it all to a good cause. we'll see. i hope that my other blog didn't turn you guys away, because i didn't have it set to let anyone post...i am very sorry if you weren't able to but you will be able to now. so yeah, ok, i'm going to go ahead and go to bed, lol, i'm getting a bit sick, i can't sing, my life is about to end, i swear it. i love singing beyond almost anything. i think sara, my car and music in general come before singing. and maybe friends...but it's close, lol.