this week

i'm tired. really tired. i'm about to go to bed because tomorrow i go into work at 10a and stay until closing at 8:30p. great joys!!! but it's a lot of tips and a lot of money in general so i can't complain. i'm looking forward to being through this semester and into winter break beyond what i can describe. i'll make it and i'll keep going strong but it's hard. if i weren't so damned determined that i'm going to succeed this semester i'd quit right now. i really liked the blog assignment. i started it a few hours ago and i just kept reading. i really like green genes' blog the best, personally. but i'm also into them all. i just feel like she's the most optimistic, which i can always use. i can see a wonder and joy about life in her stuff and that's important to see, i think, even though i sometimes have to weed through all my emotional shite to get there. i'm really starting to feel like i'd benefit from a nice back massage. i'm pebbly...it's like my back is made up of so many little whorls of wood like a tree. it's not very fun and i'm sure it's bad for my immune system. my tonsils have been in bad shape since the year started, too. i think it's the stress combined with all the pathogens and other microorganisms, for that matter, that i pick up every day. i'm in need of a week off or so just to focus myself in and relax a little. let's leave it where we started, i'm tired.